Sigh!

I feel like a zombie, after 5 straight pm's, one off and another 4 am's...counting the days when P leaves for oz (sob...), an upcoming & thankfully last assessment for my postgrad paper, 9 month CAF and an e-portfolio by October, thinking about coping strategies. Gee whiz- talk about stress levels, mine is full to the brim. I feel floored, knackered, what have you....just exhausted eh.
I wish time could stand still for just a moment & give me time to breathe. I feel pulled into so many directions lately, i can't wait for my days off when i can just go the beach and exhale. I want a piece of me too. Though i know there's a saying- there's never too much to give [of yourself]- i really think there is and there is a need to replenish & nourish one's self in order to maintain the ability of serving others. Hmm, food for thought. But that is one of the many things I am learning at the moment- is to have some 'me' time. I believe I have to look after myself as much as I look after others at home and at work.
But let me tell you how I am utterly enjoying my new career as a nurse :) i love it- the challenge of making me use my thinking cap more, the challenge of prioritizing etc...it is a huge learning curve but boy, am I learning. All that theory is now being set in motion in my practice and it feels good.
...anyway, on the sad side- i am feeling rather glum because i know i'll be missing P so much too & just thinking about it makes me sad already. I have to be strong because it's for our family i suppose. I know we can survive the months he's not here (sigh..) but- i'll miss him terribly.